wait, waiting....

Was actually though to have the 3D titanic with you 2 weeks ago, end up postpone until today I still haven got to watch the movie yet. You're the one who date me to the movie before it launch, but guess the movie off already and we'll just missed it like this. Was really really very fed-up on this! not the 1st time, but several times, telling myself, fine. forget it. it's gonna be alright for too long. In the end all I got was ignoring. Knowing that you was busy with your assignment too, but cant i have more attention from you too, I'm not that tough as you though. Sometimes I do need your caring too. Sometime was though to keep the day free for you, but end up all I got was just stay at home waiting your reply while you gaming or fall asleep. It really make me felt no point for me to doing this, trying to fill up my days with the fren but still afraid that your dislike and I wasted my day again! Other than this the nite you telling me that going Korea to celebrate my 21! YES ! to me in that moment was really happy but still gonna care of your budget, I could not be that selfish that why I rejected and suggest to some place nearer, cheaper. But when the time you told me to spend our 1st anniversary in local was quite disappointed to me again! why not you tell me earlier while I'm telling you the place, instead of are talking awhile making me so exited for it and you just told me make it local, I dint mean that wanna spend it overseas or where else expensive and far, was just wish to have an awesome trip and memorable trip to me and you in our anniversary. But end you I get full of disappointed again. Somehow I just wish to have more caring from you. I know you do have your own problem too. But still I'm your girlfriend too!! I just want you remember things that you had promise me, Just for last nite, I tot we were going snowflake after dinner? Guess you was totaly forget about it again, same to the nite. Not mad because of your late going back and yamcha with your mate, but is things that i had told you, you cant even give me a slot to remember it, I though i had told you to let you know later, but end up I randomly got your text and told me you already went out. OH GOSH! Is make me feel like, okay You're going yamcha with your mate now, your better dont come. It really really hurt me! make me feel so bad. Same for today, was not in a good mood but still trying my best to advice you and your mates, assignment problem. I really wish i could have the courage to talk to you about this, but I don't think I dare and I will. maybe the best for me is just take it silently. Not to complain that you have no time on me, but just wish could get more attention you. somehow to me, you're my only one. ofcouse i wish to spend all my time with you, leaving it free for you.