a long holiday had just started..

the holiday is just began...

SPM is over, everything in my life came to 0 again, i have to restart a new life again.. is it just like how i restart computer that easy??? I hope so. but too bad is not.. while waiting SPM result, my dad had ask me to find a part time job and learn something new, he said like that i won't feel bored and at lease I learn something new.. erm.. PART TIME JOB?? work alone?? after he said that to me all this question mark i appear in my mind le.. erm.. what will happen next?? I don't know??

during this holiday, I really feel that I'm so useless, just keep asking money from dad, haha.. last time i did this everyday but i don't feel shame but why suddenly i feel that?? may be a 17 girl mind is different with last time le.. I'm 17 now... but why I still feel that I still 14... ???